I’ve never been happier 💕
A wonderful calmness has washed over me and taken possession of my entire being, like these sweet mornings of spring which I enjoy with my whole heart. I’m left alone most of the day since I’m a grown adult on vacation and all the other grown adults around me are not, but I don’t ever feel lonely.
Remember that I’m still in the middle of nowhere, and yet it feels like this tiny dot on the map was created to comfort souls like mine. Maybe that’s what a little bit of sunshine and free time after two years of sitting in a dark room and studying for your exams nonstop will do to you. I’m so happy, my dear friend, totally lost in this newfound sense of peace, that all the projects I took with me to pass the time sit on my desk, untouched, gathering dust already. I haven’t even opened my dog-eared sketchbook, and yet I feel that I’ve never been a greater artist than now.
I’ve become more of an outdoors person than ever. In the mornings, the lovely valley near my aunt’s house steams with life, and the cold ground of the surrounding woods gradually but never fully warms up with the wandering sunlight blinking through the thick foliage. One of my favourite places is almost hidden among the tall grass by a trickling stream. A thousand unknown plants are noticed by me and I want to draw them all. The buzz of hardworking insects I hear all day is such a familiar sound to me now. Seeing and hearing and inhaling all that nature feels spiritual, godly even. Maybe it’s the breath of that universal love flowing through us, sustaining us, as it floats around us in an eternity of bliss. Or maybe it’s the actual biodiversity in this day and age.
And when dusk takes over and everything in me is filled with the sight of the night sky and the rich scent of the soil, more exciting than any of my exes has ever been to be honest, I long to put all this into words. I mean, I’m trying here as you can see, but I’m really struggling. I hope this whole ramble to you could be as full and warm as those quiet days are making me feel lately. If I could really mirror my soul and the beauty around me so you could see it, how great that could be! But I should stop worrying about that, about my artistic shortcomings, and just keep taking it in and enjoy it all 😊
Love, W.
(PS: I’ve finally figured out how to embed songs from the playlist I’m creating while I’m here. Are you still on your sister’s family plan? She’s got good taste. Anyway, it's here.)